So, like I said in my last blog post, from time-to-time I am just going to write about whatever is on my mind. Most likely none of this will make any sense, but oh well, this is more for me to sort whats all in my mind.
Anywho, this trip has been pretty amazing so far. It is kind of insane to think that I am only 10 days into my trip and I still have 118 days to go. I can tell you right now that I am already tired of living out of a bag; I want to go shopping, but I can't (need the money for the trip and there is no room in my bag) and I miss my friends, family and pets back home. With that said, I am still super excited to experience everything I can while I am on this journey.
Oh I also miss FREE public toliets and constant access to the interent! It annoying to have pay to use the toliet and to wait till you have WiFi to contact anyone back home or send a snapchat or check an email.
RANDOM: Someone on this bus is jamming out to Adele and I am loving it (I am writing this on my bus to Dublin)
Ok back to my other random thoughts!
So, one of my favorite YouTubers, Grace Helbig, gave the commencement speech at her alma mater this spring and yesterday I watched her speech on YouTube. (Yes! At night when I am charging my phone I still watch YouTube because it make me feel normal and inspires me to be me, if that makes any sense?) Anyway, back to my point, I was watching her speech and the gist of it was about following your fears; don't just do want feels comfortable, do that things that scare you, that take you out of your comfort zone and that challenge you as a person.
That hit me. It is a fear of mine that I will end up just doing what feels comfortable.
I am done with school, for now! I have a Master's Degree and my friends and family are asking me what it is I want to do. And at this very moment, I don't know! I don't know what it is I want to do for the next ?? years. The thing is I love the work that I have done in tax; it is exciting and challenging, but is that what I want to do for the next 45 years?
I think part of this is the tought that when I come back from trip I am going to be flat broke for the first time in my adult life and, at the same time, I am going to have to start paying off my student loans, car, and credit cards, and I am afraid I am just going to take a job just because it will pay the bills and feels comfortable.
I know, utlimately, I want to be someone that makes a difference, as cliche as that sounds. I know I don't want to sit at a desk for 8 hours a day doing the work someone else assigned me. Everntoughly, I want to be a decision maker, having the ability to make an impact on whatever company I am working for. Now, I know that is a long ways done the road from now, but I want to get there someday.
The thing is I don't know where I should start in order to get to that point. I am not afraid of trying new things and failing. Failiing is great because it means I DID SOMETHING and hopefully learned from it and it brought me closer to where I eventually want to be. I just don't know what it is I want to fail at.
I don't know!
Right now I am trying to figure out what it is I really see my self doing because I truely want to love what I do.
If you got to this point, Bravo!!! I applaude you for hanging in there with me! Feel free to like and comment on this!
Anyway, be cool, be awesome, be you!
